Finally Two Lines!

I can't believe I am writing this blog post but on November 7th I finally saw two lines! I was presenting at a Conference on Nov. 8 and was super nervous. I had to leave on the Nov. 7th after school and really wanted to take a xanax in the morning. I was about to take one and then thought about the fact that I didn't start my period. I figured I would poas just to make sure and then have my pill. I didn't even watch it- I just went and ate my bacon since I was so sure it would be negative. But it was positive!

 
I am so excited and terrified at the same time. I am praying that this is our take home baby. I've done a lot of reflecting on this journey over the past few days and I decided to make a list of what went into my (somewhat unconventional) infertility experience:

1. 3+ years from wanting to conceive to actually seeing two lines
2. a year and a half of chemotherapy weekly shots to get my immune system under control just so I could start TTC
3. 1 year, 2 months, 15 days of actively trying to conceive with an infertility diagnosis, endometriosis, systemic lupus, and a very rare bleeding disorder
4. 1 laparoscopic surgery to remove endo and push dye through my tubes
5. 882 prenatal vitamins
6. 441 BBTs recorded

So far my only symptoms have been a missed period, sore breasts, and little waves of nausea here and there.  

I told my husband when I got back from the conference by giving him a onesie with little fish and a turtle on it I bought a LONG time ago :)